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Overcoming My Fear of Heights, Sort of, But Not Really.

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Today’s Stream of Consciousness prompt is, “high/low.”

I am not a fan of heights. That’s a nice way of saying I have a fear of heights, or rather a fear of falling from a high place. Was it an anxious mother or something wired into my brain? I suppose it would be a good adaptation for a child to be born with. But if you’re born with it, it’s not an adaptation, except for the species.

I’ve pushed myself outside my comfort zone doing an outdoor adventure ropes course, walking on a wire in a harness. Loved the zip line once I trusted the equipment. But most heights are not a natural high for me. One exception is if I’m jumping into water. In my early twenties, I flirted with becoming a lifeguard  being trained by a lifeguard who was sort of flirting with me. I didn’t follow through on it, because I was in my twenties and….got distracted easily. But I did get to jump off of a diving platform that was about ? 35 feet high. That’s just a guess. I was scared at first, but knowing the water would catch me, it turned out to be exhilarating.

Water is my friend. The earth is my friend. My natural highs are mostly low to the ground. Water envelopes me, like in the womb maybe. It cools my fire sign – Sagittarius. I’ve always wanted to go caving, and loved scuba diving in my twenties. So quiet and peaceful down there.

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I sometimes wonder what I’d do if I HAD to walk across one of those swinging bridges, miles above a crocodile-filled river. The kind of bridge with old wooden slats you can see in  between.  The only way I could do it would be to not look down. That’s what I’ve learned.  I walked on the “Mile High Swinging Bridge” at Grandfather Mountain in NC once.  Looking down made me feel nauseous. I was okay as long as I only looked where I was putting my feet, and held on to the railing. And nobody made the bridge swing. And there was no wind. Then it was a piece of cake. I was happy to get to the last step and onto solid rock.

I do like to look out across the mountain tops from a good solid piece of earth.

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No outcroppings. No dangling my feet over the edge. (Unless there’s deep water below and no crocs.)

My natural highs are earthy. Riding horses. Swimming.  I don’t mind deep water I know will hold me.  Digging in the dirt. Re-arranging plants and seedlings. And dark chocolate.  Let’s not forget that! Watching sunsets. Colored glass. Singing – especially figuring out harmonies and getting them to blend. Getting a massage. Soft, steady caresses that take me to a trance.

These are things that would tend to keep my blood pressure low which it normally is. My husband on the other hand, likes to fly. He wants to re-certify his pilot’s license. He tends to have high blood pressure. He is not fond of swimming. But he goes into the ocean with me, even though he’d rather be in the sky. Some day, I’ll go flying with him.

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(The first two photos are from Pixabay. The last two are from me. )

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Stop by Linda’s blog for more takes on high/low.

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Here are the SoCS rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The’,” or simply a single word to get your started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!

Author: JoAnna

An open minded, tree-hugging Christian, former counselor, and life-long lover of animals, I'm returning to my creative roots and have published my first book: Trust the Timing, A Memoir of Finding Love Again, available at amazon.com.

27 thoughts on “Overcoming My Fear of Heights, Sort of, But Not Really.

  1. Nice

  2. I’m not a huge fan of heights either. Not terrified of them like my mom, but I definitely prefer to have my feet on solid ground where I’m not going to slip and fall to my death(yeah, my imagination is so much fun ;))

  3. I can totally relate to this as I’m not keen on heights. Beautiful photography 💖

  4. You might have a fear, but it seems like you can overcome it when necessary. That’s a good balance.

  5. JoAnna this is such a beautiful blog post and goes deeper into the soul than just the fear of heights. I love that you show you could walk across that high place anyway, as long as you didn’t look down. Keeping our eyes on our goals, and on the Lord is what helps us overcome our fears. There were so many things I could relate too in this. Blessings xx

  6. Beautiful photos to go along with this wonderful post. I never considered myself afraid of heights, but I would pass on bungee jumping and sky diving. Our love or fear of heights has to do with what our mind and body are comfortable with and I don’t think anything should feel bad about the fear aspect. I prefer to keep my feet on solid ground and not walk to the edge of a cliff. I’ll leave the daredevil stuff to someone else.

  7. Ah yes, swimming, riding horses, walking. Ground related things. I know what you mean about how water envelopes us like a womb. I like being on a mountain top, but my legs sort of turn to jelly when I am on a cliff or bridge. This weird feeling runs up and down my spine. It’s like the body saying – no this is not our habitat. We don’t fly.
    I always love your SOCs. Your mind is fun . It’s refreshing to get a glimpse into it.

    • Thank you for that lovely compliment and beautiful perspective. I’m the same way about enjoying the view and air from the mountain top, but get jelly legs and jelly belly if I try to walk to the edge. We do need to trust our body wisdom.

  8. Wonderful SoCS, JoAnna. I feel so much reading this, the descriptions are sensual, wonderful imagery.
    I like water like you. I must have really enjoyed the womb as I live to swim and bathe. It’s so relaxing. Leaving the water languid and calm. It’s the best.
    I’ve been caving and spelunking. I enjoyed it then, no more that for me.
    I used to not mind heights, but now I do. Vertigo bad.
    But I’m glad I had adventures of the high and low sort, and am rather happy to stay earthbound physically now 🙂

    • I’m honored to bring those feelings and thoughts and appreciate how you relate to water. It does after all make up 90 something percent of our bodies. (Less as we age, I’m told. ) it’s nice to have those adventures to look back on.

  9. Oops. I replied in the wrong place again. 🙂

  10. We are very similar, no outcroppings, no ledges. Crossing one of those rickety bridges would be awful for me. And if the bridge was swinging, aaahhh!

  11. Your description of crossing the rope bridges was spot on. I usually have to do some rationalizing to head out on one of those, like if I always have may hands on the ropes I’ll be able to hold on when they snap in the middle, or the likelihood that my weight is greater than those who have already crossed it, or how much heavier the bridge would be after a good rainstorm and how it is dry now. Ha! Then you just walk! I know some engineers who walk steel bridges to do inspections, up and down and across the beams. That’s not really for me…

    I do love the feel of being home on Earth, of looking out over a valley, or over the sea. We have a beautiful home.

    Peace
    Michael

  12. I am not particularly fond of great heights especially if I’m not in a confined space. I have tried a couple of height adventures earlier in life, but right now, I’ll pass.

  13. I’m right with you on the fear of heights. I would never do a course like that. I’m also claustrophobic, so I would never want to go scuba diving either. My happy space is sitting right on TOP of the water!

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