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Thank You, Body

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Today’s Stream of Consciousness prompt is: bodily functions

Bodily functions do not work as well as we get older. Some days they work fine, but you never know. Or maybe you do know if you over did the yard work again and the body is slower and stiffer the next day. We learn to pace ourselves, to be gentle. Except when we don’t and think we’re 20 or 30. The body reminds us we are older.

I wonder if this is nature’s way of preparing us to move on from the body. We become more spiritual perhaps.

My body is getting better all the time at giving me feedback – to stretch more, to take a nap, to not eat dairy like I used to. For years now, my body tells me I’m too stressed by giving me acid reflux or gas or a headache from too much time on the computer. Thanks, body, my old friend. What will I ever do without you? Fly to see the northern lights? How will my eyes see if they are gone? Maybe I will see more clearly. I hope so.

But for now, I’ll stay a while and try to take good care of my body – my feet which I take so for granted- need lotion. I need to take some deep breaths to move the oxygen in and open up. Thank you, body.

PS: Sometimes I think it would be more authentic to make my profile picture reflect my  current age. The one I have been using is at least ten years old. Maybe today’s the day. Or maybe not.

 

skinny looking JoAnne (3)

This is how I really look now. Well, not now as I type this, but most of the time out in public.

Stream of Consciousness Saturday is brought to you by Linda G. Hill. Find more streams and join the fun at:

https://lindaghill.com/2018/08/10/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-august-11-18/

Here are the rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing (typos can be fixed), and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. I will post the prompt here on my blog every Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The,’” or will simply be a single word to get you started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read all of them! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later or go to the previous week by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!


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Organ Donation and the Older Brain

SOC winner 2017

Today’s prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “organ.” Our host, Linda Hill, instructed us to “Talk about an organ or base your post on the theme of them … or one,” and as always to “Have fun!”

For many years I’ve been an organ donor. I don’t remember when I first checked that box on my driver’s license application. It could have been the very first time which was something like 40+ years ago. That might have been the best time for someone to get one of my organs, though my liver was not in the best shape in my early twenties having to sort through a variety of substances. It got better after that phase. But now, my organs have aged. Like fine whine? Ha! It was  supposed to be wine. But my digestive system has been known to whine when I get too stressed. My body is better at letting me know when I’m stressed. In my twenties, it just kept plugging along without much complaint.

Now, is it even practical to be an organ donor? I mean, as we age, how valuable are our organs to people needing transplants and such. Wear and tear adds up. But lest I become too negative (I don’t want my body to pick up on this), I’d like to acknowledge that my brain knows a lot of stuff. Yes, I have trouble accessing important information like why I came into the room (Linda is not alone) or where I put my phone, but I know how to budget. I remember the formula for photosynthesis. I know many whole theme songs from TV shows from the 70s, like this one.

 

Of course, they’re not doing brain transplants yet, right?  If they did, would a recipient of my brain know the theme to Gilligan’s Island? That might not be as practical as getting Spock’s brain, but it would be entertaining in it’s random imagination and streams of consciousness.  Still, Spock’s brain would be fascinating. It sure was a hot commodity in this episode of Star Trek.

 

 

That’s what you get from this 62 year old brain.

For more information on the Stream of Consciousness Saturday, please visit:

https://lindaghill.com/2018/07/20/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-july-21-18/

Here are the rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing (typos can be fixed), and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. I will post the prompt here on my blog every Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The,’” or will simply be a single word to get you started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read all of them! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later or go to the previous week by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!


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Letting Go: An Adventure in Acupuncture and Beyond

girl on the edge of a boat

A few weeks ago, I went to see my acupuncturist for for abdominal cramps that had been irritating me for a few days. My stomach felt constricted, tied in little knots. Maybe I’d eaten too much heavy food and needed more exercise.

Lying on the table, I listened to the gentle music with needles in my feet for grounding and a couple in my tummy and  wondered why she had put needles in my right hand and not my left.  An  image came to me of a boat on the water. The acupuncture table became the boat. A parcel of trash floated by and I reached into the water and  picked it up. I saw myself carrying the trash around wondering what to do with it. Then, back on the table/boat, I  imagined a trash can to my left, physically reached over, and held the trash over the side.

“Just let it go,” came the voice. So I  opened my hand and released the trash.

As my mind came fully back into the room, I thought about how much stuff I need to let go of, like the issues that belong to my grown up ADULT children, the clutter in my parents’ house which belongs to me now that they’re gone, and all my own clutter, both physical and mental…. The list goes on.

I moved my left hand, the one left free of needles, over my belly as if gathering whatever I needed to let go of. Then I carried it to the left of the table and let it go on the floor beside me shaking my hand a little. I did this a few more times, saying, “Let it go.” Then, I held my open hand out to the left to receive whatever gifts God wanted to give me.

Let Go

Let Go

Let Go

Receive.

That day, I fasted with water, apple juice, coconut water, and vegetable broth. In the afternoon, I meandered in my back yard and did some lite yoga. I felt something on my right hand thinking it might be the first mosquito bite of the year. But it was a lady bug walking on my right hand, the one that had the needles in it that morning. It seemed like the lady bug was biting me. But then I realized it felt more like tiny electrical impulses moving in my hand as if the lady bug activated remnants of the acupuncture. I took the lady bug to a tree branch. It climbed briefly, then flew away.

I’m feeling much better now, but years of experience have taught me that letting go is an ongoing process. Maybe this song will be a reminder, along with lady bugs.

 

I borrowed the picture of the girl on the boat from Pixabay


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Is This Normal?

SOC winner 2017

So far, all my bloodwork is normal. My doctor says that’s rare for his patients. Does that mean he sees a lot of old people? There are a lot of old people in the waiting room. Older than me. Mostly. So I should feel good, right? that my bloodwork is normal. So why do I have some days when I feel like sh* – ? Well, it’s really a few hours, like twice a week or so, in the afternoon usually, I feel like I’m coming down with the flu. Body aches, inflammation. Then the next day, I’m fine. Or even later that night, I’m okay.

I have lots of days when I feel good. So I am thankful for that. I wrote a gratitude list this morning and there was plenty on that list to be very grateful for. I’m not so much whining as wondering. (No, I’m whining, but I don’t whine much.) I would just like to know why over the past few weeks, I’ve felt achy.  Could it be osteoporosis? I have been diagnosed with that, but that was a few years ago, and this achyness is sort of new. Except that I felt the same thing during my second pregnancy 25 years ago.

Okay, I’m almost ready to get off this pity potty. But the other weird thing is that moderate exercise seems to help ease the achy feeling. I got my doctor to do some additional testing and most of that is back. Negative for RA and negative for one of the inflammation factors. I need to call back to check on the others. I bet it will be normal, and this will still be a mystery. But since exercise seems to help, and I’ve already cut WAY back on sugar since lent started, maybe I will stop talking about going to the Y to get back into swimming and do it.

Or maybe I’ll start jogging again. This lady will inspire me:

Anything is possible!

Today’s Stream of Consciousness prompt was, “so far.”

Visit Linda Hill’s blog for details. It’s not so far away, just click below:

https://lindaghill.com/2018/03/09/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-march-10-18/

Here are the rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The’,” or simply a single word to get your started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!

 


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Resolutions: Exercise, Love, and My Parents’ Stuff

SOC winner 2017

Thank you, Linda Hill, for today’s Stream of Consciousness post: “resolution.” I do need to write down my goals for the new year, so this is convenient. Playing around with the word, resolution, and resisting the urge to look it up, cause who cares, I had not noticed before that it is made up of re and solution. Like I’m going to solve this problem one more time. Again.  I did it before.  I lost weight before, and I’ve been healthier before. Of course, I’ve also been less healthy than I am now. But I do know how to get these extra pounds off. I worked a program many years ago and got thin. Running was like floating then, not sloshing. But getting back to the positive, my primary resolution/goal this year is to be healthy.  Since I got married five years ago, the pounds have crept up on me. Hubby, too.

So, here’s the plan: I’m resolving to exercise 30 minutes a day. I might not do it every day. But if I shoot for every day, I figure I’ll get five days a week. But what if I really did exercise 30 minutes every day? Wouldn’t that be cool? Maybe there will be a week when that happens. I’m going to put a smiley face on my calendar for each day I meet the goal. That worked for me in the past. My exercise can be walking, swimming, or yoga, or anything else, but those are the most likely ones. I also want to work on decreasing sugar, but I’m not going to resolve to do that. Gonna focus on the exercise. I’ve noticed I have a harder time singing while walking at church where I sing in the choir and we process down the aisle. I get out of breath. Scary. That’s my motivation along with clothes fitting better.

Resolution number 2 is to nurture my relationship with my husband. Do fun stuff. Don’t take him for granted, which I don’t when I stop and think how thankful I am for him. Look into his eyes more often. Let myself be silly and playful, even when he is serious. Except when there’s a good reason for him to be serious. I want to go hiking with him and go see the new Star Wars movie.

Resolution number 3. Dang. I forgot it. What was it? I had it a few minutes ago before I started thinking about hiking and Star Wars. Oh, yeah. I am going to get serious about going through my parent’s stuff at their old house. I need to go there about once a week. It would be easier if it wasn’t an hour away, but I can do this by not getting on the computer (except while eating breakfast) on the days I plan to go there. If I get into the computer/internet world, too much time is lost. I have specific tasks and rooms to work on, and I’m starting to feel less overwhelmed and more satisfied when I accomplish a task. Like yesterday, I went through some old vinyl records and decided which to keep and which to give away. I listened to old Henry Mancini songs and Captain and Tennille on the old turntable. It was weird but in a nice nostalgic way.

Okay, that’s it. There are other things I want to work on with writing and art, but I’m not writing them down, and this post is long enough. Thanks for reading!

Happy New Year!

For more info on the Saturday Stream of Consciousness, visit Linda at

https://lindaghill.com/2017/12/29/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-dec-30-17/

Here are the rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The,’” or simply a single word to get your started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!


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Charley Horses, Dogs, Chickens, and Bananas

SOC winner 2017

Today’s Stream of Consciousness prompt is “cramp.”

Do you even get a cramp in your foot, or your leg at night? They are the worst. I’ve heard some people, really old people, call them a Charley Horse. I wonder where that comes from? Should I look it up? Sometimes streams of consciousness get detoured for a look up…. Well, that took longer than I planned. There was a lame horse named Charley which I don’t want to think about, and the term was used a lot in baseball in the 1800s. Now, lets get back to the main stream of my consciousness.

Where was I?  Charley horses are muscle spasms or cramps. I’ve had some doozies and you probably have too. Mine are at night, not that often, but when they come, you lay there and think, can I just relax my leg/foot and it will go away. That would be nice, but then, Aaaagh! You have to get up and walk it out. For me, that often means pacing because my house is little. Some might say cramped. It’s not a tiny house, but two bedrooms and one bath is small. I prefer to think of it as cozy. My cozy urban cottage with the big back yard.

Having a big fenced in back yard has always been important to me, mostly for the dogs, and also, now, for the trees. Dogs should have room to run. Trees, not so much. All animals should have room to run if they want to. Or waddle, or scratch, or fly. That’s why when I buy eggs, which is not often as I inch toward veganism (often with three inches forward and two inches back) I buy free-range eggs. But free-range doesn’t always mean happy chickens if they are in a crowded area. Granted, it’s better not to be in a cage, but it can get cramped if you have to share your space with a lot of other chickens, standing wing to wing because you can’t fly…. Yeah, so I don’t buy eggs often. What did I just buy eggs for? I don’t even remember! Well, that’s nothing new. It was some kind of cake mix that required two eggs. The rest are now hard boiled.

I’d rather buy bananas and put them in my oatmeal. Aren’t bananas good for cramps? Potassium? Water is supposed to be good for muscle cramps. Water is good for just about everything. As long as it’s safe water without a bunch of bad chemicals in it. Water is life. Water flows though many paths in the stream of consciousness. If you’d like to travel along more of those streams, eat bananas so you don’t get cramps and visit our SOCS promptress, Linda Hill, at this blog post:

https://lindaghill.com/2017/12/01/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-dec-2-17/

Here are the SOCS rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The’,” or simply a single word to get your started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!


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Pay Attention to the Signs

danger

Today’s Stream of Consciousness prompt is the word, “sign.”

Our bodies will give us signs. Like acid reflux or upset stomach when stressed. At least mine does. My acid reflux is always an indicator of stress, or eating too fast. I ignored the signs that my post-divorce rebound, aka, the “rebound from hell,” was not a good fit. I ignored the fact that he drank a lot. (Maybe I could help him with that – OMG was I messed up!) I ignored the jealousy – accusations that I must have been with someone when he couldn’t get up with me, or “out of pocket,” as he later called it. Oh, how I hate that expression and the memory of it.

I ignored the little voice in my head that maybe I could do better. I was seriously wounded.  My body gave me other signs too – a mysterious female ailment that would not get better.  My body knew he wasn’t good for me.

But years after the rebound from hell ended, my body got better. Eventually, I knew I was better off not dating anyone. So, after five years of celibacy, I was hesitant. Fearful. Nervous, yet excited about the man from my long ago past. My high school sweetheart. People change a lot in 39 years, I told myself. BE CAREFUL!

But God gave me signs that had to do with timing. Should I give it away? Did I give it away in an earlier post? It’s in my book which comes out sometime this summer. Let me just say that I had made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t do something until something else happened. The timing of when my high school sweetheart re-appeared fit right in to this promise. And there was another promise about a criminal background check before falling in love again. The way he responded when I told him that was a sign of honor and respect.

When some one honors you and helps you keep your promises to yourself, that means a lot. My body felt comfortable and safe with him. Excited and aroused, too, after five years of celibacy. But I had learned that you can’t trust just that kind of arousal. I had to have the safety and comfort, too. And respect. I’ve read that respect is really important to men and being listened to is most important to women. Well, I can tell you that I want respect, too. And joy. And feeling safe. All those things are part of being loved and loving.

If I had not found all those good qualities in another person, I was prepared to stay single, celibate, and solo, with friends and dogs for company. Being willing to stay single was my strength. I had finally learned to honor, love, and respect myself enough to be in a healthy relationship.

I just have to bend the rules and enter another stream of consciousness to add this sign which I forgot about. Dang. I wish I’d written about this sign. Well, another time….

sign at Summerland key wharf

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Stream of Consciousness Saturday is brought to you by Linda G. Hill. For more information, just follow this sign:

https://lindaghill.com/2017/06/16/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-june-1717/

Here are the SOCS Rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The’,” or simply a single word to get your started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!