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Reasons to Live

This post  was inspired by Eliza at Reasons to Live

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In 1976, I thought about suicide. I was in 21, my boyfriend had broken up with me, and I dropped out of college. Things weren’t working out like I had hoped. Not even close.

I didn’t act on my suicide thoughts because I knew how much it would hurt my parents. They had already lost my younger sister who was killed by a drunk driver. They didn’t deserve to lose another child. No parent deserves to lose a child to death.

Eventually, I went back to college and married someone who I had a lot in common with like art, science fiction, pizza, and beer. We grew up a little and made wonderful memories having two children who I love dearly.  If I had killed myself at 21, I would not have know the love and joy of a family.

Over twenty years of marriage, my husband and I grew apart. We didn’t seem to have as much in common anymore, but I still believed in our marriage. I believed we’d grow old together and travel across the country in an RV after the children were grown.  But that wasn’t what happened.

My husband left me around the turn of the century. I was in shock. Devastated. I didn’t want to live anymore with the pain of being rejected and “alone,” though I was never really alone.  Thoughts of suicide crossed my mind, but I knew I couldn’t act on them. My children needed me, my dogs needed me, and my parents loved me. I couldn’t abandon them.

Vulnerable and confused, I made things worse by allowing myself to fall into a terrible relationship, now dubbed “the rebound from hell.” But I survived and moved on, putting one foot in front of the other. Sometimes I got dragged.

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In time, I learned to love myself again. I rediscovered my value, my gifts,  and the constants in my life that have always been important to me like nature, animals, music, art, family, and God who has been with me through every heartache and every challenge.

Now, I am married to the love of my life who found me when the time was perfect. Together and as individuals we’re exploring creative ventures, living our dreams, and building wonderful memories.

If I had remained single, I am certain that I would have been happy in the company of friends and family, loved unconditionally by dogs and by God, growing in confidence, peace, and gratitude.

 

I would not have wanted to miss any of this life.

 

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Me and my daughter 1995

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Jesse 2006

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2012 with my high school sweetheart

JoAnne painting rabbits

Painting on a community mural 2016

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So many spectacular sunsets…

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Walks on the beach…

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…. and adventures with grand children.

 

 Miracles are everywhere.

Remember these words from Mary Oliver’s poem, “Wild Geese”:

 

Whoever you are, no matter how lonely

The world offers itself to your imagination,

calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting –

announcing your place in the family of things.


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One-Liner Wednesday: Timing and Joy

“In God’s good plan, there is a reason why today is not tomorrow.”

Curtis Almquist

Sometimes we wonder what’s taking so long.

In The Twelve Days of Christmas, Curtis Almquist writes “We need the provisions of today to prepare us to receive the promises of tomorrow.”  He writes about how joy takes time, acceptance, and desire.

This reaffirms my story.

Ten years ago, I’d look up at the stars in my backyard and ask, “Is there someone out there for me? Don’t I deserve to be happy?”

The answer was yes. But first, I had to learn to be happy with me.

It took 39 years for my soulmate to find me again. We needed every one of those years, with their provisions and lessons, to become ready to journey together.

 

My wish for each of us is that we find joy in the gifts of today.

 

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For more one-liners, or to join in, visit our host, Linda Hill at:

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Here are the guidelines:

1. Make it one sentence.

2. Try to make it either funny or inspirational.

3. Use our unique tag #1linerWeds.

4. Add our lovely badge to your post for extra exposure!

5. Have fun!

 

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Harriet

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Today’s prompt is “flyer/ad.”  We are to look at the latest flyer or ad we got in the mail of which I get plenty, but we drove to the mountains yesterday and all the mail is at home. No mailbox here, so no junk mail! Yay! Another option Linda gave us was an on-line ad. Hmmm. That will work, because I want to write about a movie I watched after seeing the trailer on line, probably on YouTube.  The trailer for Harriet, intrigued me. It’s the story of Harriet Tubman and how she got to rescue so many slaves through the underground railroad.

The movie had me on the edge of my seat with the escape scenes. Would they make it? Or would they get caught and be beat to death?  It had me in tears, too. The kind of tears that are like happy tears, but also being MOVED profoundly and some sad tears.  I learned so much more about Harriet Tubman than I ever imagined beyond the little I got from history class.

She was a real life hero with a supernatural ability to see visions or warnings from God. That’s how the movie portrayed her gift of “spells” from brain damage when she had her skull “cracked” as a slave.  Her spirituality awed me. I want to watch the movie again and take notes.  Knowing more of her story, the trailer now gives me chills.  Her courage took her into the realms of what was once thought impossible. I think she had an army of angels watching her, guiding her.

Go see this powerful movie!

For more streams of consciousness, visit Linda G. Hill at

https://lindaghill.com/2019/11/22/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-nov-23-19/

Here are the rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing (typos can be fixed), and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. I will post the prompt here on my blog every Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The,’” or will simply be a single word to get you started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read all of them! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later or go to the previous week by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!


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Prayer for a Lost Dog

Today is the feast day of Saint Francis of Assisi, patron saint of animals and the environment. You can read my favorite Saint Francis story in this post about Saint Francis and the wolf.

The following events happened just a few days ago.

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On the way to the laundromat to wash my 17-year-old dog’s favorite bed, I saw a dog running down the busy street in the opposite direction. It was a dark grey dog, maybe a hound/pit bull mix, running with that panicked, I’m lost gait. Without thinking, I pulled onto a side street to turn around and fished out the leash I kept in the console. I couldn’t see the dog, but traffic had slowed considerably, and people were honking ahead of me.

I prayed out loud: “God please help that dog! Please get him off the road! Help him Now! (I had no idea if the dog was a male, but that’s what came out.) Within a few seconds I saw the dog, several cars ahead, make a right turn into an apartment complex. Okay, he’s safe. You have things to do, I told myself.  But somehow, my car turned into the apartment complex. He’s not safe; he’s scared.  Maybe he’ll come to me, said my other voice, brushing aside thoughts of then what are you going to do if you catch him?  I parked my car and started walking through the apartment complex carrying the leash. A guy near the pool house asked if I was looking for a dog.

“Yeah but it’s not mine. He was running down the street. I thought I might be able to catch him.”

“He went that way,” the pool guy said pointing further into the complex.

I kept walking, past the dumpsters and around a corner, seeing no sign of the dog.  He’s gone. Let it go. At least he’s not on the street. Maybe he’ll find his way home, I told myself. But for some reason, I kept walking through the unfamiliar apartment complex.

Then, I saw a young woman walking toward me. She must have seen the leash. “Are you looking for a dog?”

“Yes, but he’s not mine. He was running down the street,” I said pointing in the direction of the busy road.

“He’s in my apartment. He came right to my boyfriend.”

“Oh, good. Thank you. I’m glad he’s safe.”

“I work for a vet,” she said. “I’ll take him into work so see if he has a microchip.”

“Thank you so much for taking him in,” I said bowing slightly with praying hands.

“Thank you for looking for him,” she said.

“Of course.”

I walked back to my car feeling grateful that the dog found a safe place and someone in a position to help him, and that I’d kept walking long enough to find that out.

Back in my car, I said to God, “I didn’t mean to be rude with that, now! part.

God just smiled.

(The photo from pixabay reminded me of the dog.)

 

Happy Saint Francis Day!

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This picture is from the book Saint Francis of Assisi, A Life of Joy,

by Robert F. Kennedy, Jr.


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Ringing Ears and Big Happenings

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Here’s the prompt:

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “silent/silence.” Use one or both in your post. Have fun!

Silent nights no more

Though more silent than before

When I was young and having fun

And life had just begun

Or so I thought (back in the 70s)

Back then, silence was not something I desired.

Loud music, dancing kept the fire

Going all night was not so strange

Sometimes on too far a range

Angels watching out for me

Shook their heads. I was so free.

Now, I like the silence more

If only I could find it

Instead the ringing in my ears

keeps me company day and night.

So songs of birds and music soft

Will soothe my ears and lift aloft

Like rustling in the tops of trees

My mind – unless I need to sneeze

So to forget the ringing ears

And settle for a serenade

of steady calling cicadas.

Sometimes I can’t tell the difference.

They sound the same.

Are there bugs in my ears?

No way! It’s just the years

Echoing like the sound of silence.

Okay well that song’s a downer ending. So let me tell you something I can’t keep silent about. The month of June is a convergence of change and adventure.  Here’s what it’s looking like in the June schedule of events:

  • Sell the house that was my parents’  (We have a closing date!)
  • Buy a house in the mountains!  (I never imagined that would happen but we have a closing date one week after the closing of my parent’s house closing – can I use the proceeds from the parents’ house toward the mountain house? I hope so!)
  • My husband is “retiring” and moving into a new creative adventure with me.
  • My son is getting married!

All this is happening in the month of June! It’s kinda surreal. Maybe my astrological friends can explain it. Maybe I’m dreaming. Maybe it’s a God thing, after all these years.  Anyway, it won’t be very silent.

A few years ago, my son told me he didn’t think he’d ever find love again. But he has. There was a time when I thought I’d never get married again. I accepted that – just me and the dogs in my little house. God seemed silent. But God had a plan. The love of my life found me again when the time was perfect.  Now, time (God) is working its magic again.

You never know what surprises await. Anything is possible!

For more on the SoCS, visit:

https://lindaghill.com/2019/05/31/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-june-1-19/

Here are the rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing (typos can be fixed), and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. I will post the prompt here on my blog every Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The,’” or will simply be a single word to get you started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read all of them! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later or go to the previous week by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!


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Stars, Seeds, Tears, and Raindrops

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Here’s our Stream of Consciousness prompt for today:

“fall from the sky.” Write about anything that falls from the sky–real, imagined, or idiomatic. Have fun!      (Linda G. Hill)

I can definitely have fun with this one.

If a meteor fell from the sky, would it squash us or bring aliens?  Carnivorous flowers from my unconscious mind are snaking into this post. I want to write about fun! Rain drops fall from the sky. We need some here as it’s been dry. If tears fall from the sky, does that mean God can cry?  I wouldn’t be surprised. If God laughs, would it make a rainbow? But you have to have water, rain, moisture,  for a rainbow.

Before long, maple seeds will fall from the sky like miniature helicopters. Spinning with delight to sprout seedlings with seemingly little effort.

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If stars fell from the sky

Would they turn into fire flies?

Why would stars fall down from the sky?

This lady knew the answer.  I’m sorry she’s gone. Long gone. But she taught me to sing, and for that I am grateful.

 

Feeling musical, and getting back to raindrops that fall from the sky and landing on my head….

 

 

(Don’t try this without a stunt double!)

For more about Saturday’s Stream of Consciousness, visit our host, Linda Hill at:

https://lindaghill.com/2019/05/03/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-may-4-19/

Here are the rules:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing (typos can be fixed), and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. I will post the prompt here on my blog every Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The,’” or will simply be a single word to get you started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours. Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read all of them! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later or go to the previous week by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!


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Good News Tuesday: Lego Arm, Compromise, Suicide Prevention, and Labs on a Mission

Prosthetic Arms Made from Legos

Lots of media outlets are sharing this story about David Aguilar who used Legos to build himself a series of prosthetic arms when he was a teenager. He tells his story in this video:

 

Compromise is Possible

In hopes of avoiding another government shutdown, US negotiators have reached an “agreement in principle” regarding the issue of the border wall. Whether the US administration will accept this bipartisan deal negotiated by members of congress remains to be seen. But the point is: compromise is possible and, regardless of how I feel about the wall, I want to applaud their efforts.  Here’s the story from Good Morning America.

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The Guardian of the Bridge

Kevin Briggs has “talked” over 200 people off the ledge of the Golden Gate Bridge in his job with the California Highway Patrol.  What he did most was listen. Click here for the story from CBC Radio.

Labs on a Mission

Two Labrador retrievers race outside and get the attention of a neighbor who helps their mom who had a stroke.

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Got good news? Please share in the comments, or link your post below!