Today‘s prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “new/knew.’” Use one, use both, use them any way you like. Bonus points if you use both. Enjoy!
Thanks for the easy bonus points, Linda, since we can use one to say, Happy New Year! and the other some other way. And also a big thanks to Linda for providing so many prompts for so many weeks and years and helping to create communities on wordpress including SoCS, One-Liner Wednesday, and Just Jot it January which I may or may not do. But Stream of Consciousness Saturday has been a good addiction/addition to my week.
If I knew then what I know now, I would have not made the same mistakes. Would I? But then, I would not be the same person. Mistakes give us compassion for others who make mistakes and hopefully, compassion for ourselves which can sometimes be harder. Forgiving the self…. sigh…. is a process, like most forgivings.
If I knew my high school sweetheart would return to me some day, many years later, would I have gotten married to someone else? I suppose so. Otherwise, I would not have become a mother unless I was a single mother, which I was (unexpectedly) for about ten years anyway. But someone knew. God knew. I guess. Wait. What about free will? That’s too complicated to explore right now.
What I know is that when I was 16, the lady I babysat for told me that if David and I were meant to be together, we would be. That really helped my pining heart and allowed me to go on about my life for 39 years until David and I were ready to meet again.
Some things we just don’t know. Sometimes, we have to put one foot in front of the other and hope for the best. But it’s good to know what we know and admit what we don’t.
I know there are a few things I want to do in 2023. Keeping it simple and realistic: Get back to painting with alcohol ink on tile, continuing the de-cluttering process, keep working out, walking, or doing some kind of physical exercise… and love. The word love keeps coming to me. I want to make time for it – romantic, familial, and platonic love. Having reclaimed my inner introvert in retirement, I tend to not seek friends out. With occasional exceptions, I am content to be home with the dog and cat much of the time. I want to listen to my loved ones more and remember that God has a plan for them. I don’t have to try to fix things for them.
A friend on FB shared a quote:
“If you want to make God laugh, tell her your plans.” – Anne Lamott
(Dang! Coulda used that for One-Liner Wednesday. Well, who says I still can’t just because it came along in the stream of consciousness…)
I like to think that when we tell God our plans, God will laugh but also say, “I’ll take it into consideration,” with a smirk or eye roll.
Does God roll her eyes? Is she rolling her eyes at me right now? Does God have eyes? Of course! In some form or other. All seeing eyes.
If my guardian angels knew how much work I would be, especially in my early twenties, would they have signed up? If I get to be someone’s guardian angel after I die, I’ll probably have someone difficult as payback. Oh, but mine haven’t had to work nearly as hard lately! Except when I ask them to look after my grown up children. I can feel my guardian angels rolling their eyes at that.
But here’s the real lesson: If I knew things were going to eventually work out okay, I would not have worried so much. Maybe I’m still learning to trust the timing.
Well, thanks for reading the ramble.
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May your new year be filled with peace, love, joy, and blessings!
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December 31, 2022 at 9:47 am
Happy New Year, JoAnna! You’ve had an incredible journey with reconnecting to David! I wonder what else is around the corner? May you have a healthy and fulfilling year ahead with lots of love! 💚💚💚
December 31, 2022 at 9:58 am
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December 31, 2022 at 10:50 am
I love the new in knew! Happy 2023 to you.
December 31, 2022 at 11:41 am
A great read. I too hope that my guardian angels look after my adult children, and of course my grandchildren.
December 31, 2022 at 11:57 am
I love the title, JoAnna. Happy New Year. Hugs.
December 31, 2022 at 1:06 pm
Lovely post = You and David and Jackie and I spent the same lengths of time apart
December 31, 2022 at 2:42 pm
Enjoyed your ramble. We base our decisions on the knowledge we have at that moment in time. I look back at my difficult years and know now that everything passes. Do I worry less? My guardian angels are also probably rolling their eyes at my daily requests to look after my grown up sons 🙂 Blessings to you and David in the New Year ahead ❤
December 31, 2022 at 9:11 pm
Thanks for this perspective, Rosaliene. Yes, everything passes. It feels good to know I’m not alone in asking my guardian angels to protect my grown children. Blessings to you and your family. ❤
December 31, 2022 at 4:26 pm
Powerful and uplifting post to end the year on! Thank you for sharing your world with us Joanna. You always remind us that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE ⭐️❤️ Blessed by you, Andrea
December 31, 2022 at 9:16 pm
Thank you, Andrea. It’s so nice to hear from you. I always enjoy your positive posts when I visit. I’m so glad you felt uplifted. Best wishes to you and those you love in the year ahead! ❤ 🙂
December 31, 2022 at 6:16 pm
Happy New Year, JoAnna. I think things have worked out pretty well. Maybe we’re better off not knowing.
December 31, 2022 at 9:39 pm
I tend to agree with this. We have much to be thankful for. Happy New Year, Dan!
December 31, 2022 at 9:27 pm
Happy New Year!
December 31, 2022 at 9:40 pm
Thanks John. Happy New Year to you!
January 3, 2023 at 6:31 am
Great posting! It’s good to be back and be able to read your stuff. Happy 2023!
January 3, 2023 at 8:38 pm
Thanks, Dave! Welcome back!
January 4, 2023 at 6:08 am