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All (or Nothing) Up in My Head

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Linda’s prompt for today’s Stream of Consciousness is “all or nothing.” We get bonus points if we start and end our post with one (or each) of them.

All or nothing thinking is one of my pet peeves. There are so many possibilities between all and nothing. Just like there are so many beautiful colors between black and white.

As a counselor (and a parent) I encouraged people to watch out for words like always and never because they usually mean someone is not thinking accurately. But it does seem like I always have something to do. I guess that’s better than having nothing to do. But it’s nice to have moments of nothing to do but take a nap or watch the sunset.

River sunset orange and blue

Here’s one of my gazillion sunset photos.

I’ve had a busy week getting ready for the Silver Arts competition (part of Senior Games) which includes literary, visual, and performing arts categories. I entered a poem and an essay, and I’m finishing one of two paintings I need to turn in on Monday. All this is happening as my book is getting finished up. There was one final glitch in the typsetting. I say final with some eye rolling because I’ve thought I had a my “final” book cover and “final” PDF to upload more than once.

Gah! When it rains is pours.

Today, working on the painting of angels, which I will share with you next week when it’s done, I got keyed up. I feel emotionally tired after painting for a couple of hours. I want to relax more. But I talk to myself while painting, making comments on whether something is working or not. I spent about an hour on two angel faces trying to get them right.

Do any other artists feel emotionally drained after working on a painting? I don’t feel this from writing, unless I’m writing about something emotional. Which sure did happen writing my memoir.

I asked my gynecologist last week if it’s normal to feel mood swings after menopause that feel hormonal. She said it’s normal, but it’s not necessarily hormonal. She said it’s maturation. I think that’s the word she used. She said as we age, our nervous system doesn’t work quite as well as it used to, so some people get more easily frustrated and some, like me, get weepy. But then the next day, or the next hour, I’m fine. Or better than fine! Plus I realize that I have more time to think now that I’m not working that intense job I did for 30 plus years. Sometimes I have too much time to think, too many conversations in my head. It’s better when I talk to the dog.

So today, I used some mindfulness techniques and rode the old Schwinn I bought for $10 at a yard sale. I rode around my neighborhood with the wind in my hair and finding all the hills I didn’t know existed with my 61 year old knees getting a reminder of the old days. It was a good balance after all that painting and being all up in my head. Balance is something I will continue to seek to stay away from the all or nothing.

 

Doodle and bike

I just had to share my “new” bike (and my old dog)

 

 

Here are the rules for the Saturday Stream of Consciousness Post:

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The’,” or simply a single word to get your started.

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours.  Your link will show up in my comments for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top. NOTE: Pingbacks only work from WordPress sites. If you’re self-hosted or are participating from another host, such as Blogger, please leave a link to your post in the comments below.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. As a suggestion, tag your post “SoCS” and/or “#SoCS” for more exposure and more views.

8. Have fun!

Author: JoAnna

I'm an open minded, tree-hugging Christian who loves creation. After 30 years as a substance abuse counselor, I'm returning to my creative roots, painting angels, and writing a memoir about love, faith and perseverance, and how I learned that there are no coincidences.

16 thoughts on “All (or Nothing) Up in My Head

  1. Nice post. I would say it is not that your nervous system is aging but you are getting in touch with some of your emotions that you have held inside of you. When we are busy all the time we don’t have time to let ourselves feel things. So great you have all these creative outlets.

    • Thank you for this wisdom, Deborah. I believe it’s mostly getting in touch with all my feelings. Today was a marvelous day. I hope you’re having a beautiful weekend!

  2. i’m encouraged to cycle, now
    and have it all,
    well at least
    some
    joy & balance 🙂

  3. I liked when you said there are so many options between all or nothing. So true!!

  4. Your last paragraph reminds me of a significant and memorable dream I had last summer. It was during a period of time when my mind was in circles, processing things from my childhood and I was pretty much in a deep hole. The dream was that I was in my childhood neighborhood, riding my bike back-and-forth on my road. In the middle of the road, I would stop peddling and just coast. I could feel the Wind blowing on my face, blowing my hair back, and I just coasted. I would get to the end and turn around and do it again, over and over and over again. It was such a peaceful, nostalgic feeling. I think the dream is significant because I felt good and I was a child. The complete opposite of everything I had been processing. I would love to have that dream again. Thank you for reminding me of it:)

  5. You have so much going on, JoAnna!! Ride the wave and let it take you where your heart wants to go. Sweet blessings…can’t wait to see the painting! ❤

  6. Interesting. I hope I’m grumpy instead of weepy. I am melancholy enough already…or will there be a big dip in that when it all stops as well? Maybe I should just be happy and not wish for grumpiness? lol I dunno.
    Love the fireplace, dog, bicycle photo — so cozy!
    Good luck with your submissions! 🙂

  7. I think time clears the air and enables us to look and recognise more clearly… It’s been a great journey for you 🙂

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