Thursday night, I walked the labyrinth for New Year’s Eve. I did this because it was important. This is an important year. I did it for the first time on the New Year’s Eve before my sweetheart found me again. That year was changing from 2010 to 2011. I worked on forgiveness to make room for something new.
This year, I didn’t have a particular theme, like forgiveness, but there was some letting go. I paused as I started the labyrinth, and several times in the first few minutes, because I wasn’t sure if I was on the right path. The path was not easy to see in the dim candle light, but I think it was more my own insecurity, my tendency to doubt myself, that got in the way. So, I worked on letting go of that fear of being on the wrong path. So silly to think that, after everything that’s happened, after how far I’ve come.
I paused later at the nativity statues of Mary, Joseph and the baby Jesus, at the far end of the labyrinth. They were made of something that looked like thin bronze – abstract figures. The baby Jesus reached his hand up from his manger, toward the sky, but also toward me. I felt overwhelming love.
At the center, I felt that love again. I knelt down, in child’s pose, with gratitude, and to rest. Then I started the way back through the labyrinth. The return trip brought more feelings of love and joy as I smiled through little tears.
The woman in front of me, walking the labyrinth, paused to look at a mosaic on the wall. So, I paused too and looked. It was large, about 10 feet high at least, and showed Jesus standing on the shore, I think, looking at the apostles in the boat as they pulled in their nets. I thought of their faith as they brought in abundance from the sea.
As I was almost finished with the walk, I paused again to see what was on the floor in front of me. It was a tiny feather. I don’t know how it got there, but I picked it up. It has something to do with spreading my wings and flying. What a sweet gift!
The message that came to me, as I walked the labyrinth on New Year’s Eve, near midnight, was this:
“Do you know how much I love you? Let go of your fears!”
Today’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday prompt was: “pause/paws.”
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